The day has arrived, the day I dreaded for so long. The creeping fear that I always carry with me like a shell on my snails back was growing steadily until it finally engulfed me. Its dark inside, I can hear my heartbeat inside its cavernous shell. Theres a loneliness inside me and outside in the shell, I feel an unwillingness to accept it but the blackness resolves to extinguish any hope of light.
The fear of attachment is now real.